Right now I am feeling constantly edgy, anxious, stressed and depressed. I had a chat with my tutor today and although I have a lot to catch up on it's not that much and he is confident I can do it. I still feel really off balance at the moment, just really hoping my depression's not going to kick in for real. I am very tired from not being able to sleep which doesn't help, woke up at 5:30am this morning for absolutely no reason. Grrr!
Today was good cos I actually started on my experimental video, but everytime I move a clip or change any properties I need to render it out and it takes ages, and I'm gonna have to use some different footage cos this is doing my head in and seriously hampering my progress. I felt so down and stressed and had to take time out occasionally just because my head felt like it was going to explode from everything.
Tutor has handily made a list of everything I have to do this week, so I'll get working and ticking stuff off...
Can't wait to leave college and chill. Geez, if I can't hack college, I have no chance in TV! But at the same time I am doing something I struggle with and don't want to do at the moment which is nothing to do with my future career. As for final major project... been hampered by transport issues. Need to sort that out too.
Arrrrrrrrrrrggggggggghhhhhhhh!!!
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