Just feeling very meh, I guess. Everyone's off to have a happy little party, orgy, whatever, all together in York, living it up, the uni life etc. Getting drunk all the time, sleeping with tonnes of random people etc etc. Or something like that. Whatever happens, I won't be there. I just wish I knew where I was going...
Everything's gonna change after summer. I have to move out, get a job... no idea where, either. Wherever will take me, wherever the work is. The only thing I know for sure, is that everything's gonna change. I don't know how, where I'll go... just, nothing's gonna be the same again.
And that's natural I guess, things have to move on and progress. I know I do want to start again, well, start a new chapter of my life, away from this area, in TV, my own life... but, I'll miss things about my old one.
I guess I'll just deal with it. After all, I want to be a video editor more than anything. Or I did. I think I still do, deep inside. I'm just getting bogged down by how life is right now. The future might not be less hard, or simpler - but it's one step further towards my goal - and therefore happiness.
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