Just got an e-mail...

...saying I can't film at the RAF cos apparently I was rude and had a poor attitude. Not sure how they figure that one cos I immediately said sorry and that it was my mistake that I thought I could film. So now I am fucking seething with anger, I don't care if it's the bloody Royal Air Force, does not give them the right to treat civilians like shit! RAF Waddington had better go ok or I am really gonna hurt someone, cos I have had ENOUGH of being treated like this and I've just had enough of this fucking stupid project, I hate it, I never want to see a Lancaster again and I wish I had never chosen the fucking stupid topic, but done about the Bransby Horses Home or something like that. This is the worst project I have ever done, and I hate it and just want it to be over!!

Fed up...

I am now fed up to the point of snapping of people's attitudes towards us and our filming and the downright rudeness, hostility, unpleasantness etc that we receive while trying to film. It TAKES THE PISS!!

Just because I am from college does not mean I do not know what I am doing, it does not mean I play pretend, and it does not mean that I have had no professional experience or that I am not going to be an industry professional one day. WE ARE THE PROFESSIONALS OF THE FUTURE! And the sooner organisations and places we film at realise that and stop treating us like dumb useless shits, the better!

And... just because I am a teenager does not make me ignorant, it does not make me a yob, it does not mean I don't care about the war, it does not mean I am useless, stupid, mess about, or know nothing. I am an aspiring ambitious successful intelligent young lady with industry experience and a great personal connection to the war effort and deep deep respect for those who gave their lives to ensure we are free today. The sooner you ""grown-ups"" realise that the better!!

And... just because I am not from the BBC, I do not have lots of fancy cameras and other kit, and JUST BECAUSE I AM NOT OFFERING YOU A SUBSTANTIAL SUM OF MONEY FOR THE PRIVILEDGE TO FILM, DOES NOT MEAN YOU CAN TREAT ME LIKE SHIT!!!!! Where is the love these days, I mean, seriously?!?! Where is the morals and kindness and good values to do the decent thing and help some enthusiastic young documentary makers out for nothing? Are you all really that cold and spineless all you care about is money? Get a fucking grip, get down off your pedastal, try being nice and helping out by making stuff easy for us and you might get more business in future - cos teenagers are the ones who are heavily networked, opinionated and influential!

Yours, a very pissed off future BBC video editor.

Presentations and filming.

My presentation didn't go well yesterday. I rushed and stumbled on my words and the video didn't work, so it wasn't too good really! Hope it won't affect my grade :/

Today's filming of the Lancaster at East Kirkby went ok, we got an hour of footage, we also encountered a lady, member of staff, who was extremely rude and short with us for absolutely no reason. Maybe cos we were teenagers? Or just from college? Well, news to them, we're not typical teenagers, we DO give a toss about the war, the Lancaster means a lot to each other, and the ocllege kids now are the professionals of the future!

But both the brothers who own the Lancaster and the ground crew were nice and helpful which made up for it a fair bit, and we got a lot of good footage.

Now extremely tired!

I f**king hate presentations!

I sodding hate my pitch presentation.

Ok, so I have FINALLY written over 6 minutes of speech... need to test it out 'live' to see how it is in length, the rest of the time (no more than 4 minutes) of it can be/will be video footage.

Now to pitch the documentary idea to "comissioning editors"...

I'm a sodding wannabe video editor! Vid ed's don't do pitches! I'm not a director or producer, I'm an editor who is quite happy hiding in an editing suite, not doing paperwork or all the organisational crap! I really dislike standing up in front of people and doing presentations. Not looking forward to this! Got to have it polished to ten minutes EXACTLY by Tuesday. FFS. Impossible!

Mixed day

Today would have been good, had certain things not happened, like me being tired, the weather being bloody awful and the other girl in my class not being an immoral unethical hypocritical spoilt fashion obsessed you-know-what... long story but to cut it short, she got on the wrong side of my vegetarian ethics when I was stressed about work as a result ended up getting called a sick immoral bitch! Will serve her right for interrupting me and the tutor I suppose! Not like me to get riled up these days, but I guess it's just one of them times... meh!

BUT the good news today is the tutor has agreed to come and film with me at East Kirkby on the demonstration day when the BBMF Lancaster is going a flying display, AND I have an interview organised with a guy who is an ex-BBMF pilot and his dad flew in the Lancaster in World War II, so at least I will have some kind of footage to make a program with! Still behind schedule and the interview is being filmed at the start of my post production week, so cutting it very fine, but that's my speciality so it's not over yet!

And a big thanks to my wonderful darling boyfriend who bought me a big Mocha and posh cookie in Cafe Nero and made me feel looooads better - I love him so much :D

Hoooooooly crap......!!!!!!!

Oh my GOD i have SO much to do... FINALLY got an interviewee, he's not available until 1st June at least! That's my first post production week!
Geez my Final Major Project is soooo much work, I have filming a week today, it's the ONLY filming I have confirmed, nothing and nobody from the BBMF visitor centre has got back to me, and I still need to organise aerial filming and find archive footage. Oh GOD! I am NEVER EVER being a producer!

Progress...

So, I'm on top of all my work, and handed my editing essay in (on time!!) which should at least get a Merit I hope, seeing as a BBC editor helped me it should get a distinction!! However it's my work so I always think I'm crap and I've failed... hopefully not!

Now doing the pre-production paperwork for the Final Major Project which is a total nightmare! So much to organise and people aren't being helpful in replying to e-mails etc...

Tutor still blames me for getting behind on all my work when he never sent my sodding assignment brief to me while I was in London. Idiot man. He will never admit he's got too much on with that job, well it's college's fault to be honest, making him do the work of three people cos they're too tight to hire the right amount of staff!

Onwards and upwards

Well, today I've left my writing pad with all my notes in at home, so FAIL, but last night mate from BBC came on msn and gave me loads of advice, so I actually have some confidence I might not totally flunk this essay. However I don't have the Doctor Who DVDs either, so analysing a particular sequence will be tricky.
Hey ho, to youtube, if there are any vids on there...