Sunday, 28 June 2009
Thursday, 18 June 2009
YEEEEEEEEEEEES!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'VE DONE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
TRIPLE DISTINCTION IN BTEC MEDIA PRODUCTION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
DISTINCTION IN VIDEO EDITING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HOOOOOOOOOOORAAAAAAAAAY I'VE DONE IT, HIGHEST GRADE POSSIBLE!!!!!
Now...
I have a surrogate "family"...
Martin is my main support and inspiration...
Petra is a surrogate mum and also sister! And her young lad Lu is my little brother! Yes that's one complicated family :P
Chris is my darling boyfriend - that's for real that one :P
Kellie is my madness sister!
All the people on my forum are like another family to me - they're like my babysitting charges the younger ones, and Ed s like a sort of older brother.
Richard is my cuddly hamster and I look after him, well I try!
James Sa- is like my older brother and in fact we are very distantly related!
James Sp- is my lawyer!
TRIPLE DISTINCTION IN BTEC MEDIA PRODUCTION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
DISTINCTION IN VIDEO EDITING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HOOOOOOOOOOORAAAAAAAAAY I'VE DONE IT, HIGHEST GRADE POSSIBLE!!!!!
Now...
I have a surrogate "family"...
Martin is my main support and inspiration...
Petra is a surrogate mum and also sister! And her young lad Lu is my little brother! Yes that's one complicated family :P
Chris is my darling boyfriend - that's for real that one :P
Kellie is my madness sister!
All the people on my forum are like another family to me - they're like my babysitting charges the younger ones, and Ed s like a sort of older brother.
Richard is my cuddly hamster and I look after him, well I try!
James Sa- is like my older brother and in fact we are very distantly related!
James Sp- is my lawyer!
Wednesday, 17 June 2009
They Think It's All Over...
...It Is Now!!!
Ok, so it's not over, I have 4 more days left. Only 4. It's so surreal, it's crazy. But my final project and all my work is handed in. The feeling of pride and achievement is immense, and now I have to wait for it to be marked!
People who have already seen the documentary think it's really really good and my friends are so proud of me, I am so proud of myself, I feel so great right now despite feeling a bit ill, I feel on top of the world.
I know there are hard days ahead and a massive chance of unemployment, almost certainly so at first, but inside I am confident I will make it somehow, and if I can't get a job in media, I will try and get a job somewhere anyway. Mum keeps ""bringing me down to earth"" about ""the real world"" basically telling me I need to get a job to afford anything (well duh, I know that, I am not 4, and I want a job!) and then she tells me there's no way I am gonna get a job cos no-one will employ me or anyone (yeah thanks for the parental encouragement and confidence mum....) I am trying to ignore her. I know it's gonna be hard etc - but there is NO point stressing unncecessarily - where as she is a total stresshead without good reason. Well if she wants to make herself ill, sucks to her - I'm gonna enjoy my moment while I can.
Life has been tough and while this course represents a new start and new life for me, it's been a massive step into the new me from the hard times of the past and I am gonna enjoy my new life, cos I have worked damn hard enough for it. And anyone who wants to quibble can try living my life and see if they say the same.
But enough negativity. I am happy. And celebrating. And it feels gurrrrrrrrrrrrrrd! XD
Ok, so it's not over, I have 4 more days left. Only 4. It's so surreal, it's crazy. But my final project and all my work is handed in. The feeling of pride and achievement is immense, and now I have to wait for it to be marked!
People who have already seen the documentary think it's really really good and my friends are so proud of me, I am so proud of myself, I feel so great right now despite feeling a bit ill, I feel on top of the world.
I know there are hard days ahead and a massive chance of unemployment, almost certainly so at first, but inside I am confident I will make it somehow, and if I can't get a job in media, I will try and get a job somewhere anyway. Mum keeps ""bringing me down to earth"" about ""the real world"" basically telling me I need to get a job to afford anything (well duh, I know that, I am not 4, and I want a job!) and then she tells me there's no way I am gonna get a job cos no-one will employ me or anyone (yeah thanks for the parental encouragement and confidence mum....) I am trying to ignore her. I know it's gonna be hard etc - but there is NO point stressing unncecessarily - where as she is a total stresshead without good reason. Well if she wants to make herself ill, sucks to her - I'm gonna enjoy my moment while I can.
Life has been tough and while this course represents a new start and new life for me, it's been a massive step into the new me from the hard times of the past and I am gonna enjoy my new life, cos I have worked damn hard enough for it. And anyone who wants to quibble can try living my life and see if they say the same.
But enough negativity. I am happy. And celebrating. And it feels gurrrrrrrrrrrrrrd! XD
Friday, 12 June 2009
5 days to go...
...until my final deadline!!!
Everything's going nuts at the mo - and my files don't work on my home iMac. I am doing well, ahead of everyone, but I only have 3 hours on Tuesday to complete everything. Argh!
Just praying everything will be good grades...
I am not going to get my predicted triple distinction now :( which is a shame, but I am going to get great grades anyway.
Everything's going nuts at the mo - and my files don't work on my home iMac. I am doing well, ahead of everyone, but I only have 3 hours on Tuesday to complete everything. Argh!
Just praying everything will be good grades...
I am not going to get my predicted triple distinction now :( which is a shame, but I am going to get great grades anyway.
Sunday, 7 June 2009
Deeper than usual...
Well, this post isn't really media related, but then neither was the last one, this is my video editor's quest blog, but as my life is mainly skiing and editing... yeah, anyway.
I find it a lot easier to write my feelings etc, I write stories and a lot of song lyrics, well I used to, to deal with stuff.
So...
I had been wondering how this weekend would go, in the back of my mind. Because of the two people that I was going with, one is my boyfriend Chris and the other one is a guy called Richard who I met in '06 and fell for big time.
I thought now I was with Chris I would have no feelings for Richard but apparently they're still there. I love Richard on some level - special friends I think. He's also attractive 'n' all that. But him 'n' me will never be together for a few reasons, mainly that he doesn't feel the same way about me. He likes me as a friend and finds me physically attractive, but doesn't feel for me the way I do for him. This makes me sad, but at the same time, it's good, in a cruel way. We are also at different stages in our lives, and we'd annoy each other easily, and there is an age gap... but hey. We are great mates and that is a great thing. Let's focus on the positives etc.
So yes, this weekend has been hell for me to be honest... wanting to be with both Richard and Chris - not at the same time I hasten to add!! lol. My brain apparently will never reeeeally get over Richard but I think this weekend kicked it into touch a bit.
So yeah, it has been very hard, and I spent a lot of time feeling so awfully guilty for having doubts about my feelings to both parties. But Richard has gone away again now, so things can go back to normal, hopefully I can move on.
Just need college to get over and out of the way and get some edit/runner jobs!!!
I find it a lot easier to write my feelings etc, I write stories and a lot of song lyrics, well I used to, to deal with stuff.
So...
I had been wondering how this weekend would go, in the back of my mind. Because of the two people that I was going with, one is my boyfriend Chris and the other one is a guy called Richard who I met in '06 and fell for big time.
I thought now I was with Chris I would have no feelings for Richard but apparently they're still there. I love Richard on some level - special friends I think. He's also attractive 'n' all that. But him 'n' me will never be together for a few reasons, mainly that he doesn't feel the same way about me. He likes me as a friend and finds me physically attractive, but doesn't feel for me the way I do for him. This makes me sad, but at the same time, it's good, in a cruel way. We are also at different stages in our lives, and we'd annoy each other easily, and there is an age gap... but hey. We are great mates and that is a great thing. Let's focus on the positives etc.
So yes, this weekend has been hell for me to be honest... wanting to be with both Richard and Chris - not at the same time I hasten to add!! lol. My brain apparently will never reeeeally get over Richard but I think this weekend kicked it into touch a bit.
So yeah, it has been very hard, and I spent a lot of time feeling so awfully guilty for having doubts about my feelings to both parties. But Richard has gone away again now, so things can go back to normal, hopefully I can move on.
Just need college to get over and out of the way and get some edit/runner jobs!!!
Skiing...
...was excellent!!
Everyone was lovely. My ski lesson with Chemmy Alcott was great - did me loads of good - and she is really friendly, a lovely person.
I struggled with having to do the trip with my old love and my boyfriend. That was... interesting... but it's all sorted now. Was a pain at the time to say the least. Required lots of talks... and cuddles :)
Skiing was good - The Snow Centre at Hemel Hempstead is great ( www.thesnowcentre.com) :D hire skis are good actually too. Nearly killed myself on some test skis - haha. Had a spectacular fall - speedy, and painful, took far too long to hit the ground after losing control and it was painful when I finally did! Mainly bruised my back badly as I fell on it! But I am walking fine :D
The bar late at night was excellent - very funny - met a dude called Colin who is a ski boot fitter and so knows many well-known British skiers - he found out I had met Graham Bell at the BBC on my work experience - so he bloody texted Graham at 2am telling him to 'get his arse on Facebook' and blamed it on me. It wasn't me - I wasn't the drunk one!
I know have been a) asked to make a DVD about Ski Tuning for someone's business - a real job!! And b) Colin has invited me to the Birmingham Ski Show around about October - fuck yeeeeess. Bring it on!!
Ahhhh an excellent time all in all!
Everyone was lovely. My ski lesson with Chemmy Alcott was great - did me loads of good - and she is really friendly, a lovely person.
I struggled with having to do the trip with my old love and my boyfriend. That was... interesting... but it's all sorted now. Was a pain at the time to say the least. Required lots of talks... and cuddles :)
Skiing was good - The Snow Centre at Hemel Hempstead is great ( www.thesnowcentre.com) :D hire skis are good actually too. Nearly killed myself on some test skis - haha. Had a spectacular fall - speedy, and painful, took far too long to hit the ground after losing control and it was painful when I finally did! Mainly bruised my back badly as I fell on it! But I am walking fine :D
The bar late at night was excellent - very funny - met a dude called Colin who is a ski boot fitter and so knows many well-known British skiers - he found out I had met Graham Bell at the BBC on my work experience - so he bloody texted Graham at 2am telling him to 'get his arse on Facebook' and blamed it on me. It wasn't me - I wasn't the drunk one!
I know have been a) asked to make a DVD about Ski Tuning for someone's business - a real job!! And b) Colin has invited me to the Birmingham Ski Show around about October - fuck yeeeeess. Bring it on!!
Ahhhh an excellent time all in all!
Saturday, 6 June 2009
Weekend!!
So, it's all going well - intro edited, East Kirkby feature 2 shots short of being finished, interview with BBMF pilot finished, PTC filmed... but I do have to re-write a feature to be based around RAF Waddington as supposed to the BBMF. But it's going well! And now I am off for a weekend of skiing and partying - woooop! And having a ski masterclass with Chemmy Alcott Britain's World Cup Skier. Way to go to show up my bad habits etc - LOL.
Bring it on!
Bring it on!
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