First job application sent off...

Kinda nervous, dunno if I have bitten off a bit more than I can chew but a house letting company in Lincoln want a video editor for their promo videos. Job description says 'experience editing videos an advantage' so sounds like it might be feasible for me!

Today hopefully mum has printed me off some more CVs (no I'm not lazy, our printer which is only attached to mum's PC is ancient and prints black as faint brown) so I can send a CV off to Real Life in Leeds and hope they give me a job as a runner. I'd really like to work for them as they make documentaries and do stuff for The One Show on BBC, which is ace.

Another company I'm gonna send a CV to is Acrobat in Stockport - they make the DVDs for BASI (British Association of Ski Instructors), other ski DVDs, sailing DVDs, alsorts of extreme sports stuff - right up my street, they film in the Alps too, so love to work there!

Depression

So now it's all over, the Featherfest trip was HELL, only post production can save that...
Also managed to fall for someone on the trip and scare them off by being too forward so I've lost a friend too...
Unemployed, bored, depressed, going out of my mind, struggling to find the motivation to write covering letters and CVs... it's taking effort just to write this blog.
I need to get doing it though, I signed onto Jobseeker's Allowance yesterday, and god knows I need the money after how much I spent on that stupid trip.
FF was ok in parts we had good giggles in the evening but other than that it was hell and I hate myself for losing this guy...
I'm now currently drowning in depression and self-hate... Wish it would fuck off and give me a break...