Depression

So now it's all over, the Featherfest trip was HELL, only post production can save that...
Also managed to fall for someone on the trip and scare them off by being too forward so I've lost a friend too...
Unemployed, bored, depressed, going out of my mind, struggling to find the motivation to write covering letters and CVs... it's taking effort just to write this blog.
I need to get doing it though, I signed onto Jobseeker's Allowance yesterday, and god knows I need the money after how much I spent on that stupid trip.
FF was ok in parts we had good giggles in the evening but other than that it was hell and I hate myself for losing this guy...
I'm now currently drowning in depression and self-hate... Wish it would fuck off and give me a break...