Feelin' better!

Feeling better already, cos of a few things. Importantly I am over my first interview and will be more confident next time something comes around. I also know there are several other people out there at least, going through exactly the same thing as I am.

I am surprised how well I bounced back and how quickly - but it's what I need to be able to do cos at the end of the day - this is telly!!!! It's damn hard and takes ages to get in so I will just keep trying! Nothing so trivial as one rejection is gonna stop me being a runner now and an editor one day!

I didn't get the job.

As the title says.

Very depressed. I didn't think I was gonna get it realistically, I know how hard it is in TV, just upset about going back to nothingness and despair and being forced to sign on and job hunt and I just feel shite. :(

Interview...

The interview was really short, it looked very busy there.
2 very nice ladies interviewed me, one came from Gainsborough where I went to school!
They told me exactly what the runner's job entailed, testing me to see if I can put up with the conditions I suppose, I said when I first set out about this career I was told exactly what it entails and it doesn't put me off cos I love post. I also brought in what I'd done as a runner on BBC work ex - they liked the fact I can use a proper coffee machine, lol.
They told me I needed attention to detail etc to make sure tapes go out complete with sound etc etc, brought in some more stuff from work ex including one from BBC Scotland where I spotted a shot in Raven with a blue marquee Sharon had missed.
They asked me all the usual questions. When I said I eventually wanted to be a video editor they asked me how long do you think it takes to get there? I said about 7 years as that's how long it took a few editors from the BBC I know. They asked me if I coud use Avid - basically, yes, and about digitising stuff - did that at London - and how much I knew about formats - more than the average college student, a fair bit.
I made them smile and laugh quite a lot, they seemed to like me, but I was nervous as hell.
The company looks very busy but a very friendly close-knit team.

Ah well, at least it's my first interview out of the way and it didn't go badly :)

I find out if I have it at the end of this week.

Nerves and stuffs

I'm really bricking it about tomorrow...

Hunted my outfit out, need a smart belt, think I may been to polish my boots, got all my paperwork and college DVDs together, got a bag, found my smart coat, going to straighten my hair soon, thought of questions to ask... still friggin nervous!!

But really excited, genuinely, can't wait!

Hopefully this is the end of one era and the beginning of the next...

Progress!!

Just been phoned up by a production company I applied for and asked to come for a chat!
Not gonna say where or when, keep it on the low down, don't wanna jinx it.
very excited, very nervous.
I'm well aware there's a big chance I won't get anything especially in the recession but I will do my best and the experience will be great anyway. :D

Arrrrrgh!

Mum is getting on my case again... she's insistent I run myself into the ground job hunting and sure that if I do so i will get a job... she doesn't have a clue what I am doing, she doesn't have a clue about the industry and she doesn't seem to grasp the fact we're in a recession and jobs are few and far between anyway, let alone in TV.

I've had no replies from any companies in the Midlands or North of England - now writing to some in Scotland...

And it continues

Had an e-mail back from Real Life - they don't employ runners, only researchers at entry level, and advised me I would need more experience to be a researcher. They sounded positive about work experience but rightly guessed it would be an issue to get to as I don't live near Leeds.

First rejection but a positive one, and in a way it's encouraged me and spurred me on to try harder. :)

Mother continues to make my life hell, seemingly just because I am jobless this means I am not allowed to have fun with friends or leave the prison, ahem, house, oh and she double crossed me again, said she'd pay for half the cost of my driving lesson if I did 'housework' - so yes I cooked, cleaned, washed up, hoovered, etc etc - went to ask for money and mother turned round and said housework means house repair and restoration - double crossing bitch I tell you... I can't rely on her for anything, she lies and goes back on her promises 24/7 - she'll have me in debt if I am not careful.

It's the lying that pisses me off. If you're going to be late because you're still in the office at your desk, tell me, not lie that you're just leaving the office when I can tell you're blatantly still at work cos I can hear phones ringing. If you can't afford something, say so. If you want me to do jobs for money - make it clear what you want, then stick to it and don't go back on your word. I don't mind if we can't afford things, I don't mind doing jobs, I don't mind hardship, hell knows I've had enough, but I abhor lying - it makes me so mad - it's the lowest thing you can do in some respects and she needs to grow a fucking backbone and be honest.

Maybe she doesn't want me around because I cost money and make her look bad to her friends, or maybe she's jealous I have real friends and go out and have fun all the time while she's always working and lonely or ill because she's worked too hard (yes it's her fault, if you know her, don't believe her sympathy-wanting sob stories, she knows full well how working so hard makes her that ill and she does have a choice).

I know and appreciate how bitchy and evil I sound in the above post, but look at it from my point of view. I am 19, never lived anywhere apart from the family home, never had a "proper" job (because I was too busy getting my triple distinction at college!) and the least I could ask for is just for mum to be civil in this hard time, if not some support and real encouragement, and practical help with letter writing etc. But not bullying. All what she is doing now achieves is me feeling shite and suffering from my depression, and as some of my friends who suffer know, when it kicks in, you wouldn't move to save your life let alone be bothered with letter writing.

I hope it all stops soon and I feel for the other young adults out there who have to deal with this shit and even worse on a daily basis. I also urge parents to be careful in how you deal with your kids at this stage, I know I shouldn't tell you how to do your job and you want the best for your kids, but just make sure your "best" is coming across in a nice way - as help and encouragement, not nagging and bullying. By all means kick their arse if they don't want to get a job and contribute, but if they want to get a job and are trying in this difficult economical and employment to get one - please encourage and help nicely and positively. Thanks!! :D :D