Some troubles

Hmmm. Today was uppy and downy. Someone was rude to me - welcome to the industry!! Edit 12 were a joy to work for as usual. Someone in 4 called me a total star - bless her! See, if clients are nice I will bend over backwards above and beyond my job to help! You get what you give!!

Yeah I took the head runner's annoyance at something really personally and deeply and I was in a bad mood since the rudeness that morning and I just felt like I couldn't cope, and that I was a loner. I got really upset. I wanted to burst into tears or get really angry. Eventually I went on my lunch break, while I was on it the head of all runners (not the one earlier, our kitchen/building head is a she, the head head is a he) anyway he came past while I was on the computer, he asked if I was ok and doing alright, I said sorta, and told him stuff, he sat down and everything came out. He listened and understood and didn't dismiss it as excuse making. I thought in the world of work no-one cares or would help and you had to just suck it up and deal with it, but apparently not, this guy was great, said he would talk to the runners and take it all into consideration and stuff.

I also now, thanks to a lot of encouragement from loads of people, have a shiny new notebook (proper fancy hardback thing from the stationary stock) in which I write everything down that I may need to remember. I thought I would be seen as a loser but no-one cares either way as long as I do my job ok!

Something I also take into consideration is that I am 19 and everyone else is 23ish sort of age - like I was the youngest ever on BBC Post Production work experience, I am the youngest employee at my company. Lack of life experience does count for a lot!!

Also I am SO SO happy here in my houseshare, sharing with a lovely family, in the room that used to be for an au pair for the kids. En-suite! The mate I was staying with is now not my mate. The house was way too small (this one is a huge posh town house) we had nothing in common, very different views, and tbh, she is selfish and can't see things another way.

Everyone says I am doing really well to cope with moving from rural middle England where I have lived all my life to living and working in London with no mates here. I dunno, I am just trying to do what it takes to achieve my goal!!

Tough day but some good has come out of it!!

xx