Rare happiness and possible progess :)

Hello to anybody out there!
Yes, I have been bad, I haven't updated for ages. Why? Well simply, I've been very depressed and feeling like nothing is worth it and life is pointless.
That changed yesterday though. For a start, instead of blanket thick cloud and rain, it was sunny with blue skies! Now trust me, the weather DOES affect moods, and this bad weather was not helping my depression. But yesterday it was a good day for once, and the mother had taken the day off work, hell bent on going flying.
When we took off from the airfield, it felt fabulous. I have being flying since I was -9 months old, and you know what, it NEVER gets any less exciting or amazing, and I am incredibly lucky to be able to do it, because I can't afford it myself. But today felt different. As supposed to the usual exhilaration of take-off, I felt like I was rising above everything bad, flying on the wind to a better place... etc etc etc. It felt great!
Soon after we took off mum handed over control and I was flying. I've been able to level the plane off and turn it/fly straight and level for yonks now, but it's always awesome to grab the stick and say the words 'I have control.'  Amazing!!
Our plan was to head North to a coastal airfield, but that was halted after ten minutes as we flew up to a massive bank of cloud! We're not IMC rated (i.e. able to fly with low or no visibility) so we can't fly through the cloud, nor do we have the instruments for it. Frustratingly, the cloud was too low to fly under safely, so we had to turn back.
It wasn't all bad though. For a while I've been learning to land the plane in case I need to should the pilot be incapacitated. And just because I wanted to for myself - I like a challenge! I've taken it right down to just above the ground before but never landed it - it's very hard and takes a lot of judgement.
Starting on my approach though, I had more confidence than usual. The sun was shining, the wind was less than a whisper, and I was right on target for the runway. Taking a bit of instruction from mum, but I was flying the plane by myself. The descent went well, I was bang on with my throttle control and height. I can't really remember what happened next really well! I remember saying firmly to mum 'I can handle this' , and then I'm yelling 'TROUGH!!' as I thought I was gonna hit the trough to the right of the runway! I remember a 'snapshot' of green grass and trough on my right, and then an actually very smooth bump, and we were rolling along the runway. I was unsure as to whether mum had grabbed the controls at the last minute, but it felt all my own work... I turned to mum and said 'did I do that?' and she said it was all my own landing. I just started shouting YESSSSSS!!!!!!! and laughing my head off like a looney, and I was panting and shaking like a leaf and my legs were like jelly but I was so exhilarated. First landing!! And yes when I got out I kissed the ground!!

Anyway after that we went onto a nature reserve which was lovely because I saw some rare birds including pochards (ok not so rare but they don't live on my village pond!) and a white egret! Just before I saw the white egret (and luckily in the ONLY place in the reserve with phone reception) I got a phonecall inviting me for a job interview with Ellis Brigham!

Excellent stuff! Awesome day! Anyone who knows me will know I love skiing and I'm quite technical and love my gear etc, so I would really like this job. Really really really!
But, it's not TV, I hear you say! Yes but it's something I'd enjoy and it's WAY better than being on the dole, and I urgently need to save up again. I will get back into TV when the chance comes along, but this job sound great and would be awesome. And I need to save up to go on a wildlife video editing course, which would be EPIC.
So tomorrow is my job interview and then straight after I go on holiday for a week with my wonderful boyfriend. Jules is happy again and I can't tell you how damn good it feels to be free of the depression, no matter how brief the respite.

Love to you all,
Jules xx